Sophie Golden Doodle
9/27/16 4:23 am
Since she has gone, all I want to do is remember her. Her smell, her touch, her sounds. So strong in my memory initially, begin to fade now. I miss her dearly. The memories bring pain. To stop the pain, must I forget her? what was the point then? 9 years. gone. I still faintly plead, wish that she could come back. Did she really have to go? was it really time? why do I doubt. why am I belaboring? reminders everywhere, but they decrease as I suppress the pain. everywhere. but less each day. why did she have to go so soon? I loved her so much I cant sleep. I babble here instead. trying to make sense of it. what was the point? we grew together over 9 years. some struggles, but mostly good. the last few years, I began to dread her inevitable passing. I shut others down when they brought it up – we don’t talk about that. that cant happen. I cant survive that. it did happen though, and I am still here. without her.